How Can I Be Good?

If the creation You created good finds fault in me?

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Hello Reader,

This is a piece that is near and dear to my heart. Most of my poetry draws from my experiences and emotions. So if you have ever felt out of place or “too much” for people and wondered why you were not made different, this is for you. If you haven’t, I am so happy for you and this is a chance for you to see the other side. Let’s go.

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How Can I Be Good?

I remember when you offered your thoughts
I had no reason to guard myself
Your words slicing through and cutting clean
I remember when I struggled to breathe
Panic claimed as one of her own
And doubt lay in bed with me every night

I remember my heart shattering
My self-esteem was in shambles
And I used humour to pick up the broken pieces
For the longest time
I was a shell of myself
For the longest time 
I was angry at my Creator

Why?
Why did You choose me?
Why did you make me what I am?
My lopsided smile
You looked at creation and saw that it was good
How can I be good
If I am too much?
How can I be good
If the core of who I am
What makes me unique
My blueprint is not enough?
How can I be good
If they looked me dead in the eye and said “you will never be loved”?

How can I be good
If the creation You created good finds fault in me?

I believe a Japanese Spurge, pachysandra terminalis, taken by yours truly

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How can I be good

If the creation You created good finds fault in me?

This piece was born out of an experience that I have had to work through which resulted in asking God questions. I am still asking Him questions but I am learning to also listen for His reply.

He did reply!! Coming in the next publication🤫.

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Until then,

Shalom✨

And God saw everything that he had made,
and behold, it was very good.
And there was evening and there was morning, the sixth day. Genesis 1:31 (ESV)